Y’all how is it that we are already in March when the month of January felt like it was 1000 years long? I’m not quite sure I really understand how this time thing is supposed to work.
So the last time we left off I was getting back into the groove of school and work.
The two biggest things that happened were that my bike broke down (twice) in the middle of the highway and I found out I’m going to have irreversible damage and pain to my spine for the rest of my life.
Talk about a wake up call.
Part of me isn’t even surprised that this was happening. This whole entire year seems to be an onslaught of things happening one after another. That being said, I know how lucky I am.
It goes back to the feeling that I know that I am so lucky to be here and I know that living and working in Thailand is absolutely one of the best things to ever happen to me but I ALSO know that life is trying to teach me a lesson but I am continuously failing to understand what that lesson is.
I’ve been taking comfort in the fact that I know that eventually all will be revealed, and that in retrospect I’ll be able to look back and see the signs clear as day. But it can be frustrating knowing that I’m not quite there yet and I’m not sure how long this phase in my life is supposed to last.
On a more positive note,
one of the really sweet things that has happened since I last wrote is that is the amount of people that I’ve been able to reconnect with either via social media or texting has been growing exponentially.
Once I was able to put myself out there a little more, I started to see a difference in the way I was feeling on the day to day.
I’ve started to move away from doing a lot of things at school (which can be hard because I can LITERALLY see my apartment from my classroom window) and seriously finding true separation between the work and my social life. It’s so exciting to say that the impact has honestly been profound.
I know for a fact that I’m moving in the right direction.
I’ve let go of setting these outrageous deadlines for myself. I’m becoming more okay with only taking these tiny tiny tiny baby steps, because a baby step is better than nothing right?
So here’s to always moving forward, no matter how slow our pace may seem.
Until next month friends,
xo,
Ari
The following photos are from a little escape trip I took down to Bangkok. I’m trying to work more on my street photography while being more intentional with the shots I take. These were some of my favorites from that day.
